Tuxedos on the beach

एक हसीं शाम का आलम, एक ढलती, गुज़रती रात कुछ चाय का नशा, कुछ तुम्हारी हया, किसी बेवफा से वफ़ा की उम्मीद की जाए यारों से यारी, दुश्मनों से दुश्मनी की जाए भूल पुराने सदमो को, नए सुहाने नग़मों को, दिल के साज़ से, रूहानी आवाज़ से, होठों पे सजाया जाए चलो फिर से इश्क किया जाए।

चलो फिर से इश्क किया जाए,  दर्द से दिल्लगी की जाए,  टूटे हुए टुकड़ों को उठा कर,  गहरे ज़ख्मों को भुला कर, फिर उन्ही जज़्बातों को, उन्हीं शबाबी रातों को, याद करके, थोड़ा हंसा जाए   थोड़ा रोया जाए, चलो, फिर से, इश्क किया जाए।

And after almost 3 months, I write something. Even the poem was composed quite a while ago, its just that now is the most pertinent time  for me to post it as it is lucidly reflecting my current feelings like a mirror. This post is a pensive one, because I can see no further. I am tired of life, of getting disappointed again and again, loving and losing, hoping to achieve something and then faltering, not because I am incompetent but because the times are against me. I admit that there was a time when luck was shining on me, every thing I touched to turned to gold. And I wished that time that, it wouldn't run out when I needed it the most. But alas, it seems it has run out; the quota of luck that everyone is allocated; I have run out of it. Friends leaving me, the wonderful fellowship I had with GDG Indore coming to a sweet yet inevitable end, and then this happens. Yes, I am hurt because someone who I was intensely passionate about, fell for an idiot. I should've...

Will you set me free? Beyond tales of love & woes, That lie within you & me As I seek answers to the questions of life. Tell me, Will you set me free? From bonds of love that I once built, One-sided, but true, and pure to the hilt. And the fear, of losing you. I know you don't care, For you, I am just one of many. But for me you remain, A reflection. Of a shadow that I once chased, of innocence, free from guile. Do I want you? Nothing could be farther from the truth. And why should I lie? I do not want you, I need you. To make me yours, and never leave. But that is now just a shadow, Beyond anyone's reach. Tell me, Will you set me free? Dreams? I killed them. Mercilessly, because they were my own. I couldn't stand anyone else doing so. And now only you remain, between me and my quest. To conquer death.  Tell me, Will you set me free?